SAT. NIGHT =]

So I went to see my Gf again and this time I used my brain and was not speeding.. When I got there I wasnt even nervous.. I went to her door and me and jenna and her went inside jenna went to the bathroom and I kissed her, =]
People are against us but maybe they should realize that I'm happy... we are happy. We went up stairs to her bedroom jenna was playing guitar hero than my cup cake did she was really good but I kept distracting here.... It was so...
Cuteee... Well I'm wanting to be with her forever.. I just wish I could wake up everyday to her smile.. Whenever I'm not with her she is always depressed..
I hate her being in pain. She is my everything.. I wish want to live with her. We got to cuddle under the blankets.. We are soooo CUTE! I love this girl .
I miss her. I want to be at her house waiting for her to come home from school. What if something changes between us tho? what if I get into trouble?? what if my mom was right?? Idk.. I know its kinda bad but she is really mature for her age. I cant give up on our relationship tho. IM NOT!

Loving and Belonging level..

I'm on the loving level .. I'm not totally confident in myself. I'm working on moving up. I do respect others so that is a sign that I'm moving up. I think the top level will be the hardiest. I have a hard time handling my own problems... I'm not worried about water, breathing, food, or sleep and I also took care of security of employment, body and property.

whatever I feel like...

So. I have 14 more days of my grounding. this really stinks! My girl friend thinks we are falling apart and I wish i could prove her wrong. I don't want us to fall apart. After I get ungrounded I'm going to do my best to see her. I'm soo upset that I just don't know what to do.It like everything goes right at first but than.Someone messes it up.Why do I let people get to me? I'm so random. I don't know what to say.This weekend was the longest one I have in a long time.

FRIDAY NIGHT 11-14-08

SO... I just really need to vent and i cant do this at home sooo.. here i go.. after school Friday I went to see my gf. yes, my gf. well anyway... she lives two hours away and my crewfew was 1am.. well... I got lost only 3 times.. lol.. yes 3 there's like 3 hours of driving wasted on getting lost... sooo... I arrived at her house and got off the phone with her... Jenna Arthur went with me. I walked up to her... we went inside.. we sat on her couch and asked if we wanted a drink me and jenna both said no. We kept looking at each other smiling,,, than she would look away.. =[ I love her smile.. I moved closer to her and pull her arm around myself.. than she squeezed me and wouldnt let go... well other stuff happened... but not like that but im just sure some of you just want to stop reading this or already have... she walked me to my car.. i gave her a kiss and a hug... and told my baby girl goodbye..... =[ .... my phone was dead so i put it on the charger... than was on my way home... The speed limit was 65... and well... I was kinda speeding... I went 82.... =/.... omg... flashing light... It's a cop... I have no clue where i was at that time not even close to springfield yet... he was being very nice as he was talking to me... he wrote me out a ticket... and the only thoughts that were in my head were... Mom said" your first ticket you keys are on the table" and that fact I will probably never get to see my girlfriend every again...=[ omg! i cant do this! It's already 1:45am... I'm already late plus i have a ticket... bye bye Brittany's LIFE! I get into jacksonville. and Im breaking another law im on the phone.. and think im gonna get pulled over again dont u? no.. im just saying that.. Im on the phone with my baby.. and she is like pretty much asleep...=[ I tell her she needs to go to bed but she says no.. ugh.. fine.. I get home I tell her good night and i Love her.. and we hang up... I have to be at work at 8am and it 3am... 5 hours ugh... I tell mom everything the next day and I get grounded for a MONTH!!! OMG! no talking or seeing my baby for a month! WELL ITS MY OWN STUPID FAULT!!! but I can after DEC 15th

REVENGE

Revenge... Well If you are messing around with each other it's ok, but if like you are really planning to hurt someone its sooo wrong... Hamlet was told by his father to get back at his uncle and i understand that. His uncle killed his father and is now with his mother.. At the end pretty much every charicter died and that is pretty much because of revenge.. once again if your joking around it fine but if your planning to hurt someone you could get in some big trouble...

Doesnt really matter to me.....

It really doesnt matter to me because I really dont follow politics. I dont know about either of them. I feel like It's gonna be different with Obama president because some people and gonna the racist against him. Gosh, I dont know what else to say. I dont know either one about them..

When my sister lied

OK so. Like a year ago Me and my sister way on our way to the gas station because she wanted a soda and she kept being annoying so I gave in plus I had a headache and when I have a headache I'm a $&^%$. So we went to that gas station and Got her a soda and than on the way home she kept turning the music up and being really loud and annoying and just remember I have a HUGE headache. So I told her to shut up or I'll slap you. Well she didn't believe me, so I slapped her, NOT in the face but on her leg not even hard. She started crying and saying she was gonna tell mom. We got home, mom say her crying, asked Megan (my sister) what happened. She told mom I slapped her across the face, which her face was red from crying so mom believed her. She started yelling at me and didnt even let me tell my story and so I yelled back. " I didnt%&^*$%& hit her." mom was like "well look at her face Brittany!" I slapped her leg and her face is red from crying. mom still didnt believe me. Than I did something I still regret. I told my mom that I hated her. I told her I was done and She yelled at me to get the %&*$ out of her house! I said no. And she came over and grabbed me and pretty much pushed me out the door. I started walking down my drive way than mom came outside and was like give me your car keys. Well the car is in her name so. I was like they are *&%^$#^ in there on the counter. Than felt them in my pocket and was like nevermind here they are and threw them at the door where she was standing and almost hit her. I walked down me my friend Jenna's house crying because she was serious. She didnt want me in the house. I kept thinking that she hates me and doesnt love me and I wont have anyway to get to work to even make money. I Told Jenna that whole story and than decided I need to go and get my clothes... We also called Kayla and she was with Heather so they came over and we went to my house. I walked up to the door and knocked. Im here to get my clothes. Than mom got on the phone with her friend which at that time paid for our fones. She came down as I was packing and told me Im not taking my fone with me. I got pissed and started crying again. She asked me what im doing? I said im done im moving out! She was like think about what your mom does for you. Than I was like she yelled at me and didnt even let me tell my story I didnt even hit megan. Than I realized I cant move out. where would I go? what would I do? This is my home. So I told my mom I was sorry and we forgot about everything. I told my friends I was gonna hang at home so They left and I went and took a nap because I had a bad headache. THE END!

Heyy..

Hi my name is Brittany Plowman, I'm 18 and I live in Chapin Illinois I live with my sister which is 11 and my mom. I work at McDonalds and have for almost two years. If you dont really wanna hear about my life or my opinion than maybe you shouldnt be on my page, But feel free to check out my blogs and maybe you just might get to know me a little better. =]